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The biggest lie you ever told was that you loved me.

— 5 hours ago

I am manifesting into the world that I am going to get my Nacho back home safe where he belongs and I am going to find a new job where I have support and I am given credit for the hard work that I have been doing. 

— 10 hours ago
When everything is broken. Remember what matters.

When everything is broken. Remember what matters.

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There are no pictures of me smiling after I sent my daughter for adoption →

peaceshannon:

"돈도 없고, 어린 미혼모가 키우면 아이가 불행해진다. 대신 아이를 입양 보내면 거기서 잘 먹고, 잘 입고, 공부도 다 시켜주고, 공주처럼 행복하게 할 수 있다"는 것이었다. 김씨는 "처음엔 아이를 보낼 생각이 없었지만 자꾸 그런 말을 들으니 그 말이 진짜라고 생각하게 됐다"고 말했다.

김씨는 1979년 친권을 포기한다는 각서를 쓰면서 아이가 원할 경우 언제든지 친엄마를 찾을 수 있도록 본인의 이름과 본적 등 자세한 인적 사항을 적었다. 하지만 수정씨의 입양 서류에는 친엄마에 대한 정보가 전혀 남아 있지 않았다고 했다. 수정씨는 ‘노량진경찰서 앞에서 버려졌음’이라고 기록된 단 한 줄의 정보와 함께 1980년 미국으로 입양됐다.

김씨는 아이를 입양 보낸 뒤 자신의 결정이 잘못됐다는 것을 깨닫고, 밀려오는 죄책감에 시달렸다. 지금의 남편과 결혼을 해 아들 딸 낳고 남부럽지 않게 살았지만 시시때때로 떠오르는 큰 딸 수정씨에 대한 기억 때문에 고통의 응어리가 남았다.

밤마다 아이를 찾는 꿈을 꾸다 울면서 깨는 바람에 김씨는 “그만 잊으라”는 남편과도 많이 싸웠다. 김씨는 “딸과 연락이 닿은 뒤 내 사진을 보내달라 길래 사진을 찾아봤는데 평생 웃고 찍은 사진이 없더라”며 “시간을 되돌릴 수 있다면 아이를 데리고 길에서 굶어 죽더라도 내가 직접 키웠을 것”이라고 말했다.

translation:

They said to me, “You don’t have any money, if you raise her as a young unwed mom, your child will become unhappy. Instead, send her for adoption and she will eat well and wear nice clothes and be able to study and live happily like a princess.” “At first I had no intention to send her for adoption but after hearing that over and over I started to believe it” Kim said. 

Kim signed the relinquishment papers in 1979 and she filled out all of her personal information in detail, in order that her daughter would be able to find her if she ever wanted to. But, there was no information about her left on her daughter Sujeong’s adoption records. Sujeong was sent for international adoption in 1980 with only one line of information in her records, “Abandoned in front of the Noryangjin police station.” 

Kim says that she realized that she had made the wrong decision after she sent her daughter for adoption and she struggled with the guilt that flooded her afterwards. After getting married, she had a son and daughter, and has lived a comfortable life but a bitter pain always remained whenever she remembered her daughter Sujeong. 

Every night, she would wake up crying after dreaming of her daughter coming back to find her, which would cause her to fight often with her husband when he told her to “Forget about it.” After contact was reestablished with her daughter, Kim says, “My daughter asked me for a picture. So I looked all over for a picture to send her. I realized there are no pictures of me smiling after I sent my daughter for adoption. If I could turn back time, I would go back and get my daughter and raise her, even if it meant we would’ve starved on the street together.” 

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— 3 days ago with 75 notes

searchingoceans:

onefitmodel:

psychedelic-psychiatrist:

dor-dinen:

Truth is Beauty by Marco Cochrane

Ugh yes I’ve been searching for this

what the hell this is freaking incredible

Qow

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sevenseventhree:

important. watch how you talk about the violence in chicago; understand where it really stems from. if you are blaming communities, get the fuck outta here.

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juilan:

Don’t fake an orgasm for a guy, let him know his dick game weak as hell

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foxmouth:

Places of Solitude, 2013 | by Laura Tidwell

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— 6 days ago with 51726 notes
"Marry someone you want to annoy for the rest of your life."
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thisisnotjapan:

Episode 3 in the “shit white people say: reversed” saga

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pyranova:

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prismatic-bell:

Can we just stop and talk about this for a minute?

Thresh doesn’t make an alliance. Thresh doesn’t waste time liking her. Thresh knows that either he must kill her or she must kill him for one of them to win.

But this is the only way he can repay her for protecting Rue when he couldn’t. It’s the only way he can repay her for honoring Rue when he couldn’t. He honors her by sparing her friend, the girl who would have died for her.

The revolution really doesn’t start with Katniss.

It starts with Rue.

SOMEBODY FINALLY SAID IT

This is exactly the point I’ve been trying to make for years. Okay, so the revolution gets it’s kindling with Katniss. She volunteers, well that’s new, she rebels in the display of talents by shooting the apple. This triggers her perfect score, okay. These aren’t really “Revolutionary” though. 

It’s not even revolutionary when Peeta professes his love, because, let’s face it, the rules of the game haven’t changed. They’re still just two kids who would have to KILL each other to win. Without a doubt, it would bring some interest to the games, so the Capitol makes propaganda about it. The “Star Crossed Lovers” in a game of life and death.

But what changes the game is Rue. Right away from her introduction in the books we know Rue is going to be somewhat of a big deal. She was compared to the most important character to Katniss, Prim, so that’s a huge indicator. She’s small, young, she’s what Prim would have been.

So Katniss instantly feels a subconscious pull toward her. 

When they meet in the trees, Katniss could have killed Rue easily, and Rue probably could have pulled a sneak attack or alerted the Careers of Katniss’s presence. Instead, Rue points out the Tracker Jacker nest.

Then it escalates, Rue and Katniss become an odd team, they’re an alliance, which is never new in the Hunger Games, as forming teams and then betraying them at the end seems to be a common, but there’s is different. It’s close, it’s sisterly, protective.

And then Rue get’s impaled. Katniss kills her first tribute with ease after that. Comparing it to hunting game. Katniss holds Rue, she cries, and then she sings. She sings for Rue a song of promised safety and warmth, something completely absent in the arena. 

And this is where the metaphorical canon fires. Katniss could have left Rue, the hovercraft would have been along to pick her up, but she can’t. She’s morally obligated to love this girl as much as possible. And this is where the revolution starts. 

She honors the dead. She honors a dead tribute from a district she’d never seen, a person she’d known for only a short period of time. But she throws away Hunger Games norms. She rejects them completely.

In the Hunger Games you’re supposed to kill mercilessly and leave the victims for the plain box they’re shipped home in. 

Katniss gives Rue a funeral in the Games, she decorates the body, she makes it look like Rue is sleeping. Like no harm had come. Katniss just ignited the coals that Rue had placed.

Rue’s District sends a parachute. Homemade bread. 

Then Thresh kills Clove and distracts Cato by taking his bag. 

The fire is going now, and the actions in Catching Fire are even more obvious.

The Speech for Rue. Peeta’s painting. Everything eludes back to this one little girl who became Katniss’s family.

So the revolution never started with Katniss, she was just the tinder for Rue’s ignition. 

Rue was the real Mockingjay.

I just got fucking chills. I don’t think I ever realized this before.  I need to reread those books again.

I just loved that this little girl, this catalyst, was named “Rue”.

To “rue” something means to REGRET. (As in: “You’ll rue the day you crossed me.”) And the Capitol has a lot of regret to come to it.

And then there’s the homonym: “Roux”. A “roux” in cooking is a mixture of wheat flour and fat used as a base for sauces and stews as a thickening agent. It’s the beginnings, the catalyst for something richer, something more.

God I LOVE clever character names!

I love it when posts get better!

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— 1 week ago with 333510 notes
the purple hair struggle is real

the purple hair struggle is real

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